my black past

Manip Pictures

2007-05-03T13:49:00.001+08:00

Mr. & Mrs. Kim Junsu

Fanfic Poster For Rasinah

2007-05-03T13:44:00.000+08:00

i made this for Rasinah unni.

Happy Birthday, DE SHIT!!!

2007-04-07T09:21:00.000+08:00

saeng il chuka, christine

Photoshop - ing

2007-02-04T18:15:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I discovered a new hobby...
in fact it is the most addictive hobby ever...
i feel as though i can't live without it...
it is a type of thing i do every time i feel stressed, bored or just neutral...
and nothing to do..
i'll only think about making a graphic
be it a banner, icon, poster or wallpaper...
i'll just do something..
i even do gif nowadays...
this is way fun...
u guys should try it too...

ok, peepz GTG...
Lots of Love,
Asn-Shiira

Updated: Kpop Freak

2006-11-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

it has been like half a year that im so obsessed with kpop...
so obsessed that i've not been updating my blog...
but heyy,, i'll try my best to update here and there...
ok...i have lots to say after ignoring my blog for so long...
i think abt like 8 mths...
haiz...wat for have blog if im so busy in forums...

ok,, so i'll start updating everyone abt me and my gorgeous life...

firstly,, i've been obsessed with kpop since may...
I've known Jang Nara...for quite a long time...
Forgotten her after finishing seeing her kdramas...
i've forgotten for like four yrs...
Four yrs later,, i start looking at kdramas again...
i start out with My Love Patzzi...and then so on...
ok,, after that i start looking out abt her...
i found more...than i did before...
firstly, i found out she is a singer...
and i listenned to some of her songs...
that's when i started venturing into kpop...

then, one day i watched one of her performance...
the one she sang "Tonight, I'll celebrate my love for you"
together with Taebin frm 1tym...
so i started liking 1tym...
one of my favourite songs frm 1tym is Hot Deugah
And i like Taebin the most frm 1tym...

Frm, 1tym ,, i got to noe that he's frm YG Family...
YG Entertainment...
so i got to noe the famous...
and well-rounded artist...
Se7en!!...actually my friend who is obsessed with kpop..
introduced me to him...
since i kept talking abt Taebin with her...
when i got to noe Se7en...
i was like turning frm a newbie fan...
to one hella crazy fan...
i wached every of his perf.
downloaded all of his songs...
even bought his albums...

ok,, when june came...
the same friend who introduced se7en to me...
she introduced to me...
Super Junior...
at first ,, i wasnt so into them...
coz im so obsessed towards se7en...
when i watched the MV "U" of Super Junior...
i started liking Kim Kibum...
i liked him for his smile...
but it fades away...
when i was watching a variety show that he was a guest in it...
SBS LOVE LETTER....

coz i was attracted by the cuteness of Brian Joo
of FTTS...
nya!!! he darn cute...
i officiallly made him known as my first husband...
nyahahaha...

ok, so back to Super Junior...
Super Junior is a 13-member group...under SM Entertainment
Eeteuk ,the leader...Heechul...Hankyung...Heechul...Yesung...
Kangin...Shindong...Sungmin...Eunhyuk...Donghae...Shiwon...Ryeowook...
Kibum...Kyuhyun...
they debuted for the first time as a 12-member grp on Nov 6,2005...
kyuhyun, the 13th member, also the youngest member...
joined the band on June 2006...

they 've been in one show which i finally determined who my most fave will be...
which is Donghae!!
the show is called Super Junior Fullhouse...
i started liking Donghae when he sang the song "Because you're my woman" by Lee Seung Gi...
i liked his voice...
and he's funny at times...when he did the flipping...
and he has a cute laugh...
and he dance really good...
ok,, enough of spazzing abt him...

here's my ranking on SuJu:
1st Donghae
2nd Eunhyuk
3rd Shiwon
4th Eeteuk
5th Hankyung
6th Ryeowook
7th Kyuhyun
8th Heechul
9th Yesung
10th Sungmin
...
the other three i dun quite like them...
they are Kibum, Shindong and Kangin...
and i dun want to tlk abt why i dun like them...
maybe another time...

so tat's it for now...
i'll continue abt my obsession some other time...

PEACE OUT!!
-xiah's Shiira-

Learning Korean

2006-07-16T16:30:00.000+08:00

Let me go back to your side again
I hate those cold words that aren't even from your heart
Give me that smile you gave me the first time we met
Look at me again
Forgive me because I can't say anything to you
I'll stay by your side
FOR YOU...
I wont make you cry.This I promise you...
Once, just once know my hurting heart
My heart that goes toward you,
that loves you...
I can't be happy without you
YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE ALONE
Just know my love for you...
I fell in love with you without realizing it
I didn't know, I forgot that you'd be hurt
But my heart not once left your side
Believe my words...please, I love you so much
I'll stay by your side
FOR YOU...
I wont make you cry...This I promise you...
I never loved someone else
I never didn't have your love
I never thought of loving another person...

CAUSE I LOVE YOU SO....

The Velvet Cries

2006-07-13T04:30:00.000+08:00

I told him...i told him...tat im going to win his heart...but
i never felt worse before...
coz...the reason i am sad is...
he lied to me bout havin a new girlfriend...
i would rather he tell me bout it himself....
then me finding it out by myself...
you know...it pains me so much...
ARGH!!!
i wish i could put a gun onto ur head rite now,RIDAUDIN!!!

Hear my cries, please

2006-06-21T22:42:00.000+08:00

Sumtimes, i cry in the dark or at a corner where no one could see me. And when dat happens, i always wished for sumone to take me into his arms, comforting me, hushing me to sleep. And when there's no one that came, i drifted further into the relm of darkness. Darkness soon descend upon my heart. It finally conquered me inside. is there anymore light that reach me now, am i completely blinded from the faith i used to have. where is that ray of hope i kept praying for? where's the love i had been looking for? Please don't abandon me right now when i need you the most. Release me from this wrath which had engulfed my mind. Rescue me from the penetrating claws of the devil. Come and cuddle me under the peaceful and pure wings of your angels. Dear God, i here pray to you with the very last strand of what is still good in me.

The Decadence

2006-06-21T15:50:00.000+08:00

How sad it is...That when i went to school yesterday [to get my IC], the clerk is not working on that day...
And i stood there like i've just been shot right in the heart...
Of course, i was terribly unhappy...
It has ruined all of my plans for that day!
Then i went to Macdonald's to meet my friends....
i dunno what to say to them ..now that i can treat them to a sumptuous[ i hope] meal...
i felt really guilty...
and rina...she dressed up today...for this meal...
i am so sorry to dissappoint her...
but when i finallly told them
they were fine with it...
they even brought me out to go shopping at YISHUN...
gosh...they are truly great friends...
i dunno how to make it up to them...
all they have been doing for me...its to be super duper nice to me...
and i...i just always disappoint them...
but i had postponed the treat to this friday...
so i hope everything goes well...
please!!!!
this is my only gratitude for my most truest dearest friends....
so i want it to be happening...
i dun want to disappoint them again....

L O V E

2006-06-02T14:08:00.000+08:00

To special people searching for that unique personin life. It hurts to love and not to love in return. Butwhat is more painful is to love someone and neverfind the courage to let the person know how youfeel. maybe GOD wants us to meet a few wrongpeople before meeting the right one so that whenwe finally meet the right person, we will know howto be grateful for the gift. Love is when you takeaway the feeling, the passion and the romance in arelationship and find out that you still care for thatperson and sad thing in life is when you meetsomeone who means a lot to you only to find outinthe end that it was never meant to be and you justhave to let go. When the door of happiness closes,another opens. But often times, we look so long atthe closed door that we dont see the one that hasbeen open for us. The best kind of friend is thekindyou can sit on a porch and swing with, never say aword and then walk away feeling like it was thebest conversation youve ever had. Its true that wedont know what weve got until we lose it. But itsalso true that we dont know what weve beenmissing until it arrives. Giving someone all yourlove is never an assurance that theyll love youback. Dont expect love in return; just wait for it togrow in their heart. But if it doesnt, be content itgrew in yours. There are things youd love to hearthat you will never hear from the person you wouldlike to hear them from. But dont be so deaf as notto hear from the one who says it from his heart.Never say goodbye if you still want to try, nevergive up if you feel you can still go on. Never sayyou dont love a person anymore if you cant let go.Love comes to those who still hope althoughtheyve been disappointed; to those who stillbelieve although theyve been betrayed; to thosewho still need to love although theyve been hurtbefore; and to those who have the courage andfaith to build trust again. Dont go for looks, theycan deceive. Dont go for wealth, even that fadesaway. Go for someone who makes you smilebecause it takes only a smile to make a dark dayseem bright. Hope you find the one that makesyousmile. Dream what you want to dream, go whereyou want to go, be what you want to be, becauseyou only have one life and chance to do all thethings you want to do. The happiness of peopledoesnt necessarily have the best of everything;they just make the most of everything that comesalong their way. Love begins with a smile, growwith a kiss and ends with a tear. You cant go onwell in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Confessions Of Desires

2006-06-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

I confessed to Rid...that i still like him...
i feel stupid...really.
But my feelings was true...
Honestly, i have always loved him from the time i got to noe him
and even after i broke up wif him and even up til this moment...
and later on...in my life...
I could proudly say he was my first true love i've ever experienced...
But i dun want to be the one to ask for patch up...
It's very embarrassing...
although i want to....veri much....
i dun the courage...
i have doubts that he'll be back with me...
so i rather he stay as my friend than i losing him as a friend...or
he treat me like a total stranger...
HAIZ....
My Confessions...

New Interest: Korean singers || YG Family

2006-06-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

SE7En

Cute, is he?

Favourite songs: Passion

And Nan Arayo[I Know]

2006-05-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

My Love Patzzi...a Korean drama series i watched lately....
Cast : Jang Nara, Kim Jae-Won, Kim Rae-Won ...
It's funny....
I watched it at YouTube...
Kim Jae-Won is so handsome
and Jang Nara is so cute!!!

2006-05-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

I've changed...now its the whole new me....
now im single...i guess the hope tat i once cherish is now lost...
i tot it would last longer...
anywaYz...
im back after 4 so long...
DUN MIND THE MESSAGE "GO AWAY"
it is actually meant for ridaudin...
hehehe
anywayz i hope u all enjoy the new MAS MUNIRA a.k.a [ :: a c i d :: ]

2005-10-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

Mas Munira

a n.e.w h.o.p.e [[cherish this lurve]]

2005-10-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

1st October
*fifa's birthday
*children's day
&
oso the day tat rid ask me 4 stead....
--rid ask me to meet him on dis day at 12 noon...to go group study wif khai , mannan , amalina....unfortunately, i had to wrk at 1pm...so i can study for an hour only...
--on the day, he came listenning to his discman...he smiled(so sweetly) when he saw me...
--then we waited for the rest...
Mannan came ... he was smiling sheepishly to rid (i was wondering wat r they up to)...
--soon aft khai came...then Mannan whispered to rid sumthing (im not sure wat)...then he asked khai follow him "buy waffle"...
--when they left, rid ask me for my hp...he wrote some notes on the hp...
--there was silence..then he finally spoke..."Mas, actually, i like you also" tat's wat he said(my heart was jumping so vigorously)
--then he let me read the note he wrote...it wrote " i....%....@.....%.....wiLl u be my boo?"
--my heart burst at those sentences...i tried to control myself....i was so overjoyed...i cant believe my eyes...& my ears...is this true...im not dreaming, rite?
--of coz...i accpeted his offer...who would not accept an offer from sumone they like for abt 5 mths...i think..

--tis dae was a mark of a new BEGINNING and a new HOPE...

which both me and rid going to CHERISH!!!

2005-09-27T11:16:00.000+08:00

group of friends [ faiz, taufiq, humairah n me]

2005-09-27T11:14:00.001+08:00

Such sweet couple...

2005-09-27T11:14:00.000+08:00

Old days...

2005-09-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

Simple GurL : ms Mas

BABY....IM BACK

2005-09-27T05:50:00.000+08:00

28 August
Ismail ask me to stead wif him...i dunno him tat well...so i nvr gave an answer at first...but he asked again n again...so i finally accepted him...he's 17...skul at ITE clementi...wrks at NTUC...and one thing i hate abt him is tat he SMOKES!!!

21 September
i, rid n faiz....went to e bank 2gether...we had lots of fun...it was raining...we did not bring any umbrella...Fortunately, it wasnt raining heavily...i decided to belanjar them...i did bring my ez link card so we went there via SHUTTLE BUS...frm smb MRT to SSC den frm SSC to the BANK lah...we brouhgt my MP3 and rid's discman allong...listennning to the music...den faiz melatering...made us laugh till we felt pain in our stomach...aft we took out the money...the 1st thing i did was to top up my M card...aft topping up...i started to Sms lots n lots of ppl...telling them i've top up my M card...heehehe :P.....den we went back to SUNP....i belanjar rid and faiz student at MAC...i bought myself a HAppy Meal...n i got the toy...rid was so overjoyed over the toy...he started playing wif it...it was so funny...den aft tat we went home of coz...haiz...i shall nvr 4get this dae...

22 September
...our relationship went on for three weeks...when i finally send an sms[ ismail...i hate u] to him....
...he then neveer replied...and we broke up....i wasn't sad at all...in fact, i was overjoyed over oour break up...when i was him...i felt hate n gore...i juxx cant get allong wif him...its impossible betweeen us...and on this dae...i finally felt a new kind of FREEDOM...i was able to feel happy again...as i alwayys had...

26 September
Rid,, me , mairah, fiqah, iz....decided to do grp study at MAC...rid go ask ain wat she want him to buy...ain treated him lyke he was herr butler...of coz...i felt a little angry...but it seems lyke rid does not mind ... so i have nothing to say...she ask him to buy a lot of thing...so i accompany him... to buy all those things...mostly its food...aft tat we send ain back home...on e way...ain kept saying
tat i shld find a bf...n she tinks the bf i shld find is rite in front of me...but i dun quite get her...wats she is trrrying to hint....is she trying to ask me to steal rid frm her so tat she could be free frm him....im not sure...but if she doesnt lyke rid...she shld ever start a relationship wif him rite....n she should tell him tat herself n not ask me to do tat....haiz ain...i so dun understand u....

tat's all...for now...
im ma goin....
bubbyez....

Haven't Been Updating

2005-05-17T04:39:00.000+08:00

i have been updating my blog for a while....coz its been the exam week....but im glad its overr
Todae i dun have school coz no exam....so wee....but im worried thinking abt ma results....nah::i shouldn't worry coz Birthdae is Coming!!!oh im so happie ...ma sistaz 7 frenz planned a birthdae party for me....its on tiz saturday!!!

Anyway i mada a new blog again ....visit MAS 5

wat a day!

2005-04-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

29 April
was Sports Day...it was so fun...i enjoyed the event...
it was a tiring day though...in da morning...
i went off home at 6.30 am...to the MRT
i met humairah there....we waited for afiqah...
then coincidentally i saw hafiz too... so i told humira not to wait
but just go now...so we were in the same train wif hafiz...
he did not see me...but i just kept looking at him...
he was so different...he is much cuter now...
but he got off at Admiralty...so i cant look at him anymore...
we then got off @ woodlands...we waited for noorina...
while waiting we went to 7-eleven to buy some things...
we waited for 5 mins and decided not to wait anymore...
so we began our journey to the Woodland stadium...we were almost late
when we got there...afiqah and noorina are already there....
oh....wat a waste of time waiting 4 them...
we sang the national anthem and move on...
during the event i was shouting 4 ma sis who is running for her class...
my classmatez who are running 100m....4x100m....though our class did not win...we still had done our best though...

after the sports day.....taufiq..afiqah..humairah..faiz..juliana..and me went to Causeway point..we ate there..and decided to take Neoprint... we all went to print club...i met ma sis there... she was also taking a neoprint...i took one wif her and her fren, yana....there i quarelled wif ma frenz cos they were too choosy and 'cerewet' and very not willing to pour oout their money...if like might as well not take neoprint rite...maybe next time when alll of us have enough money rite...
argh...let's not talk abt them...i was so angry...i walk the whole mall...not knowing where am i going...ma sis wanted to go home... so both of us when using the bus...we slept during our journey home...we so tired...when we got home...the first thing that ma sis and i did was to jump to the bed and cuddle the pillow and straight to sleep...
then i wake up...to eat and to watch TV...and here i am now wrtiing my blog....next of course i will be sleeping again...man im so tired...

2005-04-19T16:03:00.000+08:00

Feeling So Blue

I am feeling so blue

Coz Muhaimin is so cute

I can't breathe easy

Coz my heart is filled with clues

I don't know what the heck am i writing

But i just feel good after writing it out

2005-04-16T10:55:00.000+08:00

the other me

THIS IS MY NEWEST & LASTEST bLOG.....THE OTHER ME
PRESS THE LINK.....AND EMAIL TO ME ON HOW I CAN IMPROVE ON IT....

ANIWAY...DO YOU LIKE THE SONG...TATS WAT FRENS ARE FOR BY THE SINGAPORE IDOL FINALISTS
IM GONNA CHANGE IT SOON....COZ I NOE U GET BORED OF IT SOON
SAY IM GONNA PUT AVRIL LAVIGNE'S DON'T TELL ME....ISN'T THAT A COOL SONG

I LIKE AVRIL LAVIGNE SO MUCH....BUT I COUDN'T SAY TAT IM HER NO.1 FANS COZ I NEVER GO TO HER CONCERT BEFORE OR SHOW MY ADMIRATION TO HER...
COZ IM BUSY CHANGING MYSELF....HEHEHE

THAT'S ALL FOLKS
||PEACE||* :D

Shut up! by Simple Plan

2005-04-15T13:00:00.000+08:00

"Shut Up"
lyrics by azlyrics

There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right

It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not

You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face

It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Is gonna bring me down

Will never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Won't bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Won't bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

NEw! New! New!

2005-04-09T19:08:00.000+08:00

PRESENT
wat's up, frens? Do u like mi NEW look?
i have juz change it. It ain't really quite done yet but it'll be done soon.
i promise u that. But do keep check out my page everytime you go online.

Tomolo....i might come again....but im not very sure!!!

PAST
Yesterday,8 april, i had e Meet-the-parents-session 4 da secondary two students....& i had to b da emcee...which was really trifying....i had i did my veri best
i also had a talk wif Mrs Raja....she is a really nice person....i enjoyed talkin' wif her. MUHAIMIN....argh...i 4got to tell ya bout him....anyway he's hair extremely cute...he didn't put ani gel tat evening but he's still charmin'. oh, how i wish he would go to sch wif tat ||Messy|| hairstyle

i think tat's all....see ya folkz!!! :P

::.SEXY::NAUGHTY::BITCHY

2005-01-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

I pick all my skirts to be a little too sexy
Just like all of my thoughts they always get a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls I always play a bit bitchy
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me

I'm the kind of girl that girls don't like
I'm the kind that boys fantasize
I'm the kind that your momma and your daddy were afraid you'd turn out to be like
I may seem unapproachable but that's only to the boys who don't have the
Right a approach or ride that makes a girl like me wanna hop in and roll

People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

[Chorus]

My mouth never takes a holiday
I always shock with the things I say
I was always the kid in school who turned up to each class bout an hour late and when it came to the guys I'd lay, I'd always pick the ones who wont figure out that I am clearly a rebel to the idea of monogamy

People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

[Chorus]

Sexy... naughty... bitchy...me

People think it's intimidating when a girl is cool with her sexuality I'm a 180 to the stereotype girls like staying home and being innocent

[Chorus]

I like all of my shorts to be a little too shortly
Unlike all of my guys I like them tall with money
I love all of my nights to end a little bit nasty
Can't change the way I am sexy naughty bitchy me

I pick my skirts to be sexy
Just like my thoughts a bit naughty
When I'm out with my girls ...bitchy
Can't change I am
Sexy naughty bitchy me

Friendship

2005-01-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

I know your secrets and you know mine
When you need me, I'll help you out anytime

To see you hurt, to see you cry,
Makes me weep and want to die

And if you agree to never fight,
It wouldn't matter who's wrong or right

If a broken heart needs a mend,
I'll be right there until the end.

If your cheeks are wet from drops of tears,
don't worry and let go of your fears

Hand in hand love is sent,
We'll be friends until the end

Meaning of love

2004-12-27T01:53:00.000+08:00

Love is patient.
Love is kind.
It does not envy.
It does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, and it is not easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes and always perseveres.